Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Much better!

Wow. Has it really been over a month since my last post? Gosh…I haven’t written a thing since my birthday. My oh my. And here, even my best friend has started blogging again! I better get on it! :o)

No, I actually had some pretty good news that I wanted to share. You may remember way back when I mentioned all my “hormonal challenges” and how I was going to go back to my old OB/GYN since I was not so happy with my current one. Well, yesterday I finally had my appointment. And boy am I glad I was able to go back to her!! The appointment went great. I brought in all my medications/vitamins I’ve been taking, my past bloodwork results, printouts of my temperature charts, and a ton of questions. The nurse got all my information of what’s been going on the past three years since I’ve been in there. She asked questions, wrote everything down, and even knew before I mentioned it again that I wanted to talk to the doctor about getting pregnant. None of which, I will tell you, the nurse at my old doc’s office did. Then the doc came in and we had another long discussion. She looked at my bloodwork, and my charts. She asked if my old doc had ever done any tests to determine why I wasn’t ovulating or having periods. Umm, no, she sure didn’t. So she talked about all my different options. Asked what I wanted to do. And only after I told her which option I liked better, did she tell me that is what she would have recommended in my situation. (Side note: old doc NEVER asked my opinion, only told me what she wanted to do…nor really gave me any options for that matter.)

Overall, I was soooooooo pleased with the appointment, even though I did end up being at the doctor’s office for like two and a half hours. I am very happy that I am back with this doctor and feel very confident with our next course of action. So, speaking of, here’s what actually went down:

As you all know, hubby and I decided to start “trying” in July. I decided to start charting my temps to determine if I was ever actually ovulating. Needless to say, my charts have verified that I, in fact, have NOT been ovulating. Um, yeah, that makes one entire year with not ONE chance of becoming pregnant. A little discouraging for someone who is now ready for it! So, while at the doctor, they sent me to the lab to have blood drawn to check some hormone levels and what not to try to determine WHY this has been the case. Once those results come back, she said she’d have me start the progesterone pills to induce a visit from Aunt Flo. And once she’s here, I will go back in for another appointment to check on some things that are most easily checked while Aunt Flo’s in town. As long as all that checks out okay (meaning that if I do start to ovulate, there’s nothing else that could hinder a pregnancy), then I will start on the Clomid. At this point, she agrees that the easiest and most cost effective approach. If that ends up not working in causing me to ovulate, only then would she refer me to a reproductive specialist to see what else can be done. Honestly, though, I don’t think it will get that far. I think as long as I can get my selfish ovaries to quit hoarding my eggs, it should be smooth sailing! :o)

While it still may be a little while before we’ll actually be able to have some “productive trying” (seems this whole year has just been “practice trying”…hehehe), it’s both exciting and nerve-wracking to know that it will actually happen soon! Here’s to hoping my hormone levels don’t come back to terribly out of whack! :o)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Oh. My. God.

Yes, I know I said I was going on hiatus, but this is one of those *have* to share with you guys.

So today is my birthday. Well, at work, they always decorate for birthdays. I guess I should also mention a co-worker is also a HUGE Twilight fan. Thus, my cube...





















Love them... :o)


Sunday, November 1, 2009

Hiatus

Hello all! I apologize for my lack of posting this week. I told you it was going to be super crazy busy.

It is now November. I know, I can't believe it either. Hubby is at work. On a Sunday. Go figure. And I've been going over things in my head all morning long. I've been so convinced with everything going on lately that my writing here and tweeting with you all is soothing and relaxing. Today it hit me. I. Am. Utterly. And. Completely. OVERWHELMED.

So far this weekend I haven't read blogs, I haven't written blogs, I haven't tweeted, I haven't facebooked. I have checked in on some to see what's going on, but I have not been an active participator. And I think that I will continue to just be a passive onlooker for a while. Thus the hiatus. I just can't keep up with it all right now. I desperately want to. I fear I will desperately need to, but I just can't.

I need to take a step back for a while and get some things together with me. I'm sure from time to time when I really need to vent or have a hilarious story that I just have to share, I will be back. But don't worry that I've fallen off the planet. I'm still here. I just won't be around much for a while.

Believe me, I will TRULY miss tweeting with you all while at work. Shoot, I was out one day and felt like I missed an eternity of what you all had going on! But the truth is, I can't really handle anyone else's lives right now besides my own. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't be someone who you can talk to right now to vent your own troubles. It saddens me that I won't be there for y'all when so many of you have been there for me.

I feel like my life right now has been sucked up in a tornado and it has spit me out miles away from home with pieces of it, left scattered, here and there, all along the way. So, for now, I will be walking my way back, picking up the pieces as I go so I may be able to put them all back together again once I get home.

Until then, all my love and thanks,

Monday, October 26, 2009

Monday Mantra

This week...is going to be super crazy busy!

I believe...I won't be reading many blogs this week. :o(

I'm addicted...to saltines and peanut butter. It's like the perfect snack!

I wish...it wouldn't take 3 months before new guy (starts Monday) can help lighten our CRAZY workload.

I'm jealous...of everyone who actually likes their job.

Soundtrack/Mantra for the week...Happy Birthday to Ward!!



Sorry...it's the only picture of him on my phone!


Friday, October 23, 2009

Happy happy joy joy!

I’m not sure exactly why, but I am in just a terrific mood this morning! So of course, I just had to share with you guys! Aren’t I the sweetest? Really, there could be numerous reasons for my gleefulness this morning…

It might be because I am so proud of my doggies. Yesterday, it was (supposed to be) raining and storming all day long. I really didn’t want to have to put the dogs outside in that kind of weather. They would be miserable and covered in mud when I got home! So, for the first time ever, I left them inside. OUT of their crates (which we’ve broken down and stored away). For the ENTIRE day. Now, I did contain them to the upstairs hallway, like we do at night, but still. I was very nervous to what I would come home to. Well, I got home, let them outside then went up to survey the damage. Or rather, LACK THERE OF!! No damage at all! They didn’t try to eat their pillows. They didn’t chew on the furniture. They didn’t even pee on the carpet!! Oh, I was but ecstatic! I even gave Major a hug. (He’s a good hug giver) And while they were cooped up all day and all night yesterday, they were still perfect little angels this morning as I got ready for work. I love my dogs. They’re the greatest!

You know, my good mood most certainly could be from the fact that I went to Bunco last night, at my mom’s house, with my best friend. It’s actually been a while since my best friend, B, and I have had some just us time. And it was great. She got me all up to speed on her pregnancy. Her new pictures. Her new due date. Her eating rules. What they’ve started picking out for baby. It’s all just so exciting! While I didn’t win anything at bunco, (though B did!) it was a great relaxing night with a fun group of ladies. And I definitely need that every once in a while.

Really, it could just be the weather that makes me so giddy. We had a cool front come through yesterday and I woke up to 52 degrees this morning! BRRRRR!!! The sky is crystal clear blue today with the most perfect cool breeze. I even wore a long sleeve shirt to work! I L-O-V-E this weather. That alone can put the hugest smile on my face! Though it would be even more perfect if I, you know, didn’t have to work. But hey, we take what we can get, right?

Also, I finally started rereading Twilight (again)!! Though I'm only two chapters into it so far, just the fact that I'm reading it again makes me smile.

Now, my last reason, is, well, a little controversial. I’ve been debating whether to post it. But I figured y’all would have the best advice, so here goes. I’m actually in a good mood partly because my husband is out of the country. Now, please don’t take this the wrong way. Let me explain. I love my husband dearly and I am sad when he’s away, but he’s been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo super stressed lately and he’s bringing all this bad stressful energy home. I’ve been trying very very hard lately to simplify and declutter and relax my life. I stress out too easily. Even though he’s got about 1000 times more stress than I do, he’s not trying very hard to rectify the situation. And really, his stress and bad energy just ends up bringing me down with him. I try my hardest to get him to see the light and make changes, but he just doesn’t. And so, while he’s away, I feel so much…lighter. Like I can breathe again. It really does break my heart to see him like this. Who knows what I can do to help him out?? I want to be able to have these wonderful, carefree, happy feelings when he’s at home!! I want us to be happy and carefree and relaxed TOGETHER! Help a girl out??

Okay, okay…I really do need to get some work done today! I truly hope that all of you are having a super wonderful fantastic Friday!


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

So pushy

How Major lets you know he wants some attention:



I know it's a little hard to see, but that's him setting his head on my laptop...while I'm in the middle of typing! Sheesh...


Poor guy...

Yesterday I posted about how Ward was heading off to Brazil pretty unexpectedly. Well, his plan was to come home at lunch today and pack and then he would head to the airport right after work. He called my at work just after 5pm and said he was on his way home. For just one split second I got super excited like maybe the trip was cancelled and he wouldn't have to go after all.

Uh huh. Yeah.

That's why I said one split second. No no. He was on his way home to pack because he was too busy to run home at lunch. AND he said it was a good thing he didn't try to pack last night for just a short Thursday to Saturday trip. He found out this morning that he now has to stay for a meeting on Tuesday. So much for hoping he'd be home this weekend. And here I thought I was finally going to get that new faucet for the kitchen sink. Well poo on you, Brazil!

I really do feel bad for the guy. He's under so much stress right now. And now all this last minute trip half way across the world business. It's just not very healthy. I told him he better workout at the hotel every day that he's down there to help with his stress. I hope he listened.

And to top it all off, with this now extended trip, he won't be home for his birthday on Monday! He actually didn't realize it until he was just about to leave and he's all mopey and says, "I'll see you in December." So I say, "You better be home for my birthday." (Which is in a week and a half) And then we both just look at each other and I exclaim, "You're going to miss your birthday!" Then he was even more upset about having to go.

Poor guy.